08.24.07
Posted in Me, Thoughts & feelings at 4:59 pm by One in a Million
المكان: في حرم السيدة زينب عليها سلام. دمشق، سوريا.
الزمان: يوماً ما، بعد أذان المغرب.
بين صلاة المغرب و العشاء، قررت أن أسترق النظر في أرجاء الحرم المطهر و أن أملأ عينيّ بالمشاهد حولي. فهنا رجل
طاعن في السن قد جلس ليقرأ الزيارة المفجعة و عيناه تسترسلان بالدموع طالباً رحمة ربه، و هناك نساء من شبه القارة
الهندية قد تحلقن حول مقرئ يتلو عليهن ما جرى على العقيلة في كربلاء.
أخذت نفساً عميقاً لأملأ رئتي بالهواء العليل الذي لا يهب إلا في مشاهد العصمة و الطهارة.
استدرت حولي لتسجل ذاكرتي جميع التفاصيل و لتسجل ذاكرتي أنني قد أديت صلاتي في ليلةٍ صيفيةٍ في إحدى أطهر بقاع الأرض.
و بينما أنا في هذه الحالة الوجدانية، فاجأتني طفلة صغيرة قد تكون ابنة سبع أو ثمان سنوات. حملقت في وجهي و بادرتني
بالسؤال على استحياء: ” إنتو من البحرين؟”.
سؤالها عادي جداً، بل أصبح سؤالها معتاداً بالنسبة لي في بلاد الشام.
أجبتها بالإيجاب و دار بيننا حديث مقتضب لأكتشف أن الفتاة عراقية أجبرت على العيش مع أهلها في سوريا هرباً من الحمام الدموي العراقي.
كم أهوى الشاعرية في اللهجة العراقية.
قررت أن أقوم بعدها لصلاة العشاء. جلست الصغيرة بجانبي و لا زالت تنظر إلي بنظراتٍ لم أعرف سرها. نظراتها مختلفة، اختلطت فيها البراءة و الحزن و معانٍ أخرى لم أكد أصل إليها.
سألت الصغيرة عن اسمها فأجابتني: “زينــب”.
زين أب.. زينب، في حرم السيدة زينب.
لم تفارقني الطفلة فدعوتها إلى الصلاة معي. صلاتي كانت قصراً، و أثار استغرابي أنها صلّت قصراً معي.
بعد التسليم.. لمعت دمعة يتيمة في عينيها و دنت مني و همست في أذني: ” ما عدكم ثياب زيادة؟”
قالتها بصوتٍ خافت لم أكد أسمعه. لم ترد أن تبين لكل من هناك أنها بحاجة إلى ملابس. لم تكن تريد أن يسمعها الناس.
قالتها باستحياء عظيم و رأسها مطرق في الرخام الذي يزين أرضية الحرم.
قلت لها باستفهام و فضول: “ليش؟”
رفعت رأسها إلى السماء و في عينيها ألف نجمة و ألف دمعة.
قالت بصوتٍ كسير.. ” أبويه راح العراق من ست أشهر و لحين ما رجع”.
كادت أن تهرب دمعة حبيسة من عينها لكنها خنقتنها بين مقلتيها.
و عرفت حينها أنها ليست كغيرها من الأطفال هناك.
لم تكن تشحذ المال أو الملابس من غيرها بعلانية. لم تكن تتبع الزوار و تمد يد الحاجة لهم.
استغرقت وقتاً طويلاً حتى يخرج السؤال من بين شفتيها.
كم هو مرٌ الفقر، و كم هي صعبة الحاجة.
و كم هو قاسٍ هذا العالم الذي لا يُنصف الصغيرة زينب.
مسحت رأسها الصغير بسرعة و أنا أفكر في قرارة نفسي.. كيف سيرجع والدها؟ متى سيعود؟ بل هل سيعود أبداً؟
هناك ألف ألف زينب بيننا.. لكننا لا ندرك ذلك.
زينب ضاعت وسط الزحام و معها ضاعت آخر ذرات إيماني بهذا العالم.
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08.18.07
Posted in Me, Thoughts & feelings at 5:04 pm by One in a Million
I just realised that my posts are becoming very rare.
Life is a series of tests, opportunities, and surprises. I’ve had my share of all of them, especially lately. In the past one month, I sat through a number of evaluation tests. I’m still waiting for my results, uhhh and boy do I hate waiting. I am a very patient person, and I hate it! I don’t like waiting for a very long time.. but when I have to wait, I don’t really mind it. Strange.. I know!
I dread waiting for an extremely long time.
God, please grant me more patience.. and I want it now
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05.30.07
Posted in Me, My Designs & Photography, Thoughts & feelings at 8:58 pm by One in a Million
Away from their eyes, follow me to the secret stairway..
Click here
I took this picture while I was in the island of Hydra, Greece.
I loved every part of the island. The life of the people was so simple and the best part of it was the beautiful big blue sea.
More pictures wil be posted soon.
Until then, take care and love life.ツ
One in a Million
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05.29.07
Posted in Me at 3:59 pm by One in a Million
بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
Yes, it has been 5 very long months since I last posted anything on my blog!
Five very very busy months. I have been soo busy with my job and didn’t even get time to post anything here. I need a break.
I missed you all.
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12.22.06
Posted in Me, Thoughts & feelings, University Life at 10:14 pm by Haythoo - Admin
بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
On a cold morning, two years ago, I woke up to very disturbing news.
While I was in university, I got into the habit of reading newspapers everyday before I leave home. On that particular morning, I was reading Al Wasat newspaper when I got the shock of my life. I saw a dear classmate’s name in the obituaries section.
في ذمة الله
He passed away. But it’s not possible!!
I still remember that it was a Saturday (first day of the week then). After being hit with the terrible news, I did not tell anyone about it. I went to my first class and waited. Yes! I was waiting for Mohammed to step in the class. But he was unusually late on that day. But why??
Even after reading his name in the newspaper, I was in absolute, total denial. I refused to believe that this is the same Mohammed I talked to on the previous Wednesday. I talked to him one or two days prior to the accident. I recall that he was complaining about the mounting pressure he was under because of his senior project and applying for jobs.
I later found out that he had a car accident in Saudi Arabia.
Imagine how it feels to talk to a dear colleague on one day and lose him on the next day. It is a total shock. It is a terrible loss.
Mohammed, you will be missed forever.
رحم الله من قرأ سورة الفاتحة و أهدى ثوابها لروح المرحوم الشاب محمد الخاجة.
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12.13.06
Posted in Me, Thoughts & feelings at 4:27 pm by Haythoo - Admin
There are so many things to like about December, especially this year!..
Its morning rainshowers, Christmas time, winter vacation, new year’s eve, Eid al Adha, Eid Al Ghadeer, national day, my sisters’ birthdays.. and many more occasions!
Freedom is dancing at my doorstep. One more day and I will be free. freeeeeeee.
To me, December is the right time to set my soul free. My camera’s battery is full and its memory is empty. Time to fill it!
It just feels nice and I thought it would be great to mark this memorable month and great weather with a short post ツ
Enjoy December and have a great year everyone ツ
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10.26.06
Posted in Me, Thoughts & feelings at 3:18 pm by Haythoo - Admin
I hate it when I take sooo many things for granted. I won’t generalize and say that everyone in the world take many things for granted- all I know is that I used to do so for a very long time.
It is the little things around you that are usually taken for granted. It is the little details that get lost in your crowded world.
It’s funny how I used to take certain feelings for granted, just because they didn’t mean much to me. For instance, feeling hungry! Why appreciate this feeling? It never occurred to me that one day I will be thankful to God for feeling hungry- until I once got sick and lost my appetite. Now when I feel hungry, I remember that I am fortunate because Alla has granted me good health to be able to enjoy life.
Never take anything for granted and learn to appreciate everything around you. Most importantly, when you feel that you’re fortunate to be blessed with Alla’s grace, then a little prayer and an “al7amdela” will be just great
Have a look around you and I’m positive that you will find a million reasons to thank God.
Have a happy weekend everyone!
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10.24.06
Posted in Islamic Occassions, Me, Thoughts & feelings at 10:44 pm by Haythoo - Admin
بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
هذي عيديتي من جدتي الله يطول في عمرها
دينار واحد فقط و لكنه يعني لي الكثير.
العلاقات العائلية من أهم أولوياتي في الدنيا، و العلاقات الطيبة مع الأهل و الأسرة بالتحديد عنصر مهم جداً في وجودي.
أحب قضاء الوقت مع أهلي و أفضل أن أقضي الأمسية معهم على أن أقضيها في الخارج مع صديقاتي.
من أجمل فصول السنة فصل الصيف لأني أسافر مع أسرتي و نقضي أوقات ممتعة و سعيدة معاً.
قد تكون خربشة عابرة بالنسبة لك و لكنها تظل أحاسيس أحببت أن أشاركك بها..
هذا و أسأل الله تعالى أن يحفظ أهلي و يحفظ أهاليكم و كل غالي..
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10.23.06
Posted in Islamic Occassions, Me, Thoughts & feelings at 4:32 pm by Haythoo - Admin
-Here’s a great site for daily horospcopes. I think that this site is very good because it is very accurate- it bases your horoscope on your date of birth and the hour you were born. Horoscopes fascinate me. I like to be in touch with the supernatural side of life.
- It’s freaky how my yearbook photos are haunting me for such a long time. I can’t believe that there are still some people who go back to the yearbook.
- I don’t know what’s happening in Bahrain. Last night we went to Baskin Robbins Sanad and while we were in the car, I saw a monkey with no leash! It was less than a meter away from the windshield, which was totally open. Scary! Too bas I couldn’t get a pic. It would’ve been so fuuny
- Eid mubarak everyone. Enjoy the Eid vacation- I know I will. I can’t beleive that Ramadan is over!! It passed by very quickly this year. I’ll miss this great month. I’ll miss staying up late and having Iftar with my family everyday.
- I seriously miss winter. Rain in Bahrain is lovely because we don’t get much of it. I hope we have a rainy winter this year! I love the feeling when droplets of rain hit my face- it’s magical.
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10.19.06
Posted in Me, Thoughts & feelings at 3:19 pm by Haythoo - Admin
Ok, so I’ve been busy for a while with everything. My job, the holy month of Ramadan, and everything else that comes along with it. This is my first post this in more than a month.
Did you ever feel so much pain that you can’t handle? Well, I have!
Imagine someone reaching inside you nervous system and pulling your nerves. How will you feel? Not so good, trust me. I underwent a root canal procedure last week and during this very painful session, I experienced pain at its maximum.
I don’t have a problem with syringes- as long as they’re not for me. However, I have a big problem when they’re in my mouth. During the first session, I had two anesthetic shots in my mouth and gums. In the second session, I asked the doctor to undergo the procedure without sedation, and yes I regret doing so. During a root canal procedure, the nerves of the teeth are exposed- meaning that even a breeze of air can cause pain!!
When I’m at the dentist, I usually shut my eyes and imagine I’m somewhere else. I would never dare to ask him what is he doing in my mouth. I occassionally hear him drilling or pulling out somthing- I feel nothing. I don’t really know who discovered anesthetics, but I know that I love him.
Tonight is my final session- I hope. I will ask the dentist to give me the anesthetic shots before i say hi.
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